Pray

I had to get out of that play. Does Hamlet know? He has to know. There is no way that he could know. There is no way that he could want a play that is parallel to the the exact story of my deed. He is acting mad but maybe with purpose. Maybe he wants us to all think he is crazy, for he knows what I have done. He would think that would be the best way to maybe seek revenge. But how would he find out? Is there something bigger here that would have told Hamlet what has happened? It is not safe for me to let his insanity get out of control. It's time to take action. Guildenstern and Rosencrantz will go with him to England. He can't be around me. I have now realized the rotten crime I have commited. There is only one thing for me to do. Pray.

For isn't that what God's mercy is for? No, that won't work for I am still reaping the benifits of my sin: my crown and my queen. So what can I do? I will offer whatever repentence I can. That can't hurt. But it can't help either! I am really in a sticky situation. My soul is stuck to sin, and the more it trys to break free, the more is sticks.